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November 28, 20245 min read

Learning to Rest Without Guilt

#anxiety#self-care#productivity

For years, I believed that rest was something you earned. You work hard, you burn out, and then you get to take a break. Spoiler alert: that's a terrible way to live.

The Hustle Culture Trap

I used to wear my exhaustion like a badge of honor. "I'm so busy" was my favorite flex. Late nights, early mornings, working through weekends — I thought that's what success looked like.

But here's what nobody tells you: you can't pour from an empty cup. And I was running on fumes.

The Breaking Point

It wasn't a dramatic breakdown. It was more like a slow fade. One day I realized I couldn't remember the last time I felt genuinely excited about anything. The things I used to love felt like chores. Creating content felt forced. Even rest felt stressful because I was always thinking about what I should be doing instead.

What Changed

I started treating rest like a non-negotiable part of my routine, not a reward for productivity. Some things that helped:

  • Scheduled rest time — Yes, I literally put "do nothing" in my calendar
  • Guilt-free hobby time — Doing things just for fun, with no monetization angle
  • Morning pages — Journaling before I check my phone
  • Actually taking weekends off — Revolutionary, I know

The Surprising Result

Here's the plot twist: I'm actually more productive now. When I do work, I'm focused. When I rest, I actually recharge. The quality of my content improved because I'm not creating from a place of depletion.

Permission Slip

If you need to hear this: you don't have to earn rest. You don't have to hustle yourself into burnout to deserve a break. Rest is not the opposite of productivity — it's what makes sustainable productivity possible.

Take the nap. Watch the show. Go for the walk. Your to-do list will still be there, and you'll be better equipped to tackle it.

What's your relationship with rest like? I'd love to hear — feel free to reach out on socials or send me an email.

xo, hexa